QotD is a feature dedicated to answering questions from Piccadilly’s 5 Year Question a Day Memory Journal. The journal states its purpose is to help reflect back on daily routine and to act as a “time capsule” of experiences. As someone who laments their awful memory, I thought this was a wonderful tool and opportunity.

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What mistake do you vow never to repeat again?

I have made a lot mistakes in my life, all of which I vow to never repeat again.

If I could sum them all up, however, it would to not traumatize myself anymore. I feel my posts often come across as whiny, but I am generally an upbeat person. While some of my coping mechanisms can be visible, such as humming or making sounds to stop intrusive thoughts, I don’t wear most of my trauma on sleeves.

However, my brain holds onto it like gorilla glue. I remember situations and words that negatively affected me before I was even in double digits. Mentally, I person who is hurt easily and my brain holds onto to negative emotions. It’s why I am so careful with my words and am never the one to take initiative.

So I suppose, in answer to this question, I feel the mistake I truly should vow to never repeat again would be holding on to those negative thoughts/memories.